I said Yes to God, No and Yes, Again

During my morning commute, I sorted through the to-do's for the day in my mind while I watched the passing cars. 

Something on the back of a car caught my attention and triggered a memory. A few months prior, God had told me to do something. But, I thought no way. Maybe, it's just in my head.

On this commute, God started to speak to me about something else He wanted me to do. I questioned if I was losing my sanity. I wrestled it. I wrestled with myself. 

"God, a lot is going on right now..." 

"What You're saying makes no sense. I can't even do that where I am now. I'd have to leave my job to do that. This is my dream job." 

For days, I wrestled a lot more. I prayed about it. Eventually, I decided the way to grow my faith was to exercise in the gym called obedience.  

I handed in my resignation letter, terrified but sure. 

The Turn of Events

I agreed in my heart that I would do it. All I needed was two weeks to prepare. Yes, I'm going to do it! 

Two weeks later, I never did it. 

Rationality turned my yes into fear.

I gained three nuggets from this and want to share them with you.

Having doubt or fear about what God says is normal. 

In our frailty, we can't fully understand God. He has a satellite view of our lives while our eyes can see only so far. 

Agreeing to do something you don't truly understand is scary. 

God wants us to bring our doubts and concerns to Him. He wants you to understand. He says, 'Come, let us reason together.' 

He may only show you a step; however, He isn't angry because of your questions.

In your disobedience, He will not reject you.

He genuinely extends compassion because He knows your heart. He sees your heart's willingness. He also sees your challenges, fears and doubts. 

And He calls you to come to Him: not to run away. 

God empowers you to say yes, again

It is better to move and do what you are to do. It's also true that God's lovingness and tenderness will help you to obey Him. 

In time, I became more concerned with what God would think of me compared to what everyone else would say. 

Yes, it would look peculiar. 

I committed to doing it. So, I did.

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You shouldn't spend your life being disobedient because God understands. This story highlights that He can reveal Himself even through disobedience. 

I have learned more about Him and his character from this experience.

Has God ever called you to do something that would look crazy to others? How did you handle it? 

Let's chat in the comments.